Last piano lesson ever.
Which feel so liberating, yet bittersweet because I’ve been having weekly piano lessons for 13 years now. And it feels so weird. I guess in a way, it’s nice to know that I’m heading back where it all started - the Carnegie Mellon music department.
School is basically over - I have an AP English test tomorrow that I’m weirdly calm about considering that I need a 5. I have TSSEC on Saturday, Triathlon on Monday, an English final on Tuesday, graduation practice on Thursday, and the actual graduation ceremony on Friday. Then I’m done.
I just feel so weird. I know my summer is in no way empty, yet it feels that way. Swimming/work in June, Taiwan in July, almost 2 weeks to relax in August before moving in in mid-August. But before, there was always something to do, whether it was to study for the SAT, Subject Tests, online courses, or music camp. Now, I’m at this point in my life where I’m transitioning from high school to college and there’s nothing really to do except maybe check out a book and try to get a head start on college material if I feel really motivated. Probably not though. So summer should be relatively relaxing, something that’s pretty new to me.
It feels so weird. I know I’m going to say this again on Friday night after I graduate, but it really is strange not to feel stressed or worried in some way or another. [Again, I really should feel worried about English but I guess it hasn’t kicked in yet? A little more than 12 hours until the test that gives me the most AP credit out of all 14.]
Well today was interesting.
B didn’t place today for the first time…ever. [She missed 6th by a point and got a perfect tiebreaker so she essentially should have gotten 6th.] I also beat S, again for the first time ever.
Also more French teacher drama.
UIL’s over, which is kind of bittersweet. But I have so much stuff to do right now so I can’t dwell on it.
Last high school extracurricular activity this Saturday at TSSEC.
Definitely just had a dream about Spelling UIL - and we didn’t place.
Which worries me because our sponsor is doing that proud mom thing where she goes around bragging about us - to the attendance office, to the counselor’s office, everywhere. And it’s refreshing, because my parents definitely aren’t proud parents in public, so being paraded around congratulated is nice, but at the same time, she tells everyone “this is our repeat trip to state” which is weird because it’s like she’s taking responsibility for us making it this far, and when we fall flat she’ll be angry again.
I just wish I’d studied more for this last meet. Regrets. I have no idea how far we are from placing as a team, but we are definitely nowhere close to getting 1st place team in the state. Which kind of sucks because the Current Events team got 1st in state, and our teacher has told us at least 6 times already “the bar has been set high now!”
I don’t really know what I’m doing.
i often confuse my gaydar with my overpowering pleasebegaydar
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